God beloved daughter

As much as I love andy, I have never bothered to count the number of hairs on his heads. I don’t have the time to do so and I doubt I will ever want to.

Every day, your hair drops. Yet, God knows how many hairs are left on your head. And He also knows how many are growing back! He knows because He bothers to count them again. When it comes to you, He always has time for every little thing about you.

So when Jesus said, “But the very hairs of your head are all numbered,” He was not exaggerating. He never exaggerates. He means what He says and He says what He means. So for the Lord to say that the very hairs of your head are all numbered means that He wants you to know that He is very absorbed in you and has intimate knowledge about you — your body, family, finances, relationships… everything in your life!

He knows the pain you have been having in your body. He is aware of the financial concerns which you have been keeping from your family. He understands the hurts you have been keeping in your heart. He hears your heart’s cry for miracle.

Your heavenly Father wants you to know that He pays attention to everything concerning you. He does not overlook it as long as it concerns you.

God knows you intimately. He knows every small problem that you are worried about and every single burden that you have. And when you approach Him for help, He has all the time for you as if no one else exists. That is how valuable you are to Him and how absorbed He is in you.

Let Give all the Glory to Our Lord Jesus :))

God’s will for us is always beautiful,wheather for the married or single person. I was asking myself just now. Lord where can i find my life partner who go through with me throughout the journey. and i was wondering is it God;s will for me to remain alone or single.

Seriously i have been in relationship, and it turn very bad. But i really glad that i have beautiful moment with my relationship.  i was asking God, when i don’t like or love the person, how can the person likes and love me.. and how com i like and the person, the person don’t show it out. i always blame myself that i did not try my best to gain he trust.. he has once told me that he has lost trust with friends, relationship, and everything and only trust himself. because he know himself very well that i don’t know him well at all. That why we never been in relationship.

i ask God where to look for my life partner. he answer me .. THE CHURCH.. it is a place where believers come and gather and are watered and refreshed and i ask God.. but i ask the Lord.. i know church.. but the person who i like and love who don’t go church and he is not a believer. The Lord say is okay.. but there is Two qualities to look for in a man .. in the bible tell us in PROVERBS 20:6.. ” Most men will proclaim each his own goodness, but who can find a faithful man?”

The Lord say, do not be taken in by a man who merely boasts on his own goodness , let it be wealth,talent or spiritual gift. But instead look for man whi is faithful. In hebrew ” FAITHFUL” is emun which means trustworthy and established.This speaks of steadiness and reliability.

In fact this applies specifically in the area of finances because Jesus himself said: ” He who is faithful in what is least faithful also in much and he who unjust in what is least is unjust also much. Therefore if guy have not been faithful in the unrighteous mammon who will commit to your trust the true riches?

Secondly the bibles say in PROVERBS 19:22: ” What is desirable in a man is his kindness and it is to be poor man than a liar. So the second quality to look for in a man is his kindness. and in HEBREW ” KINDNESS is Hesed which is the word that frequently used to describe God in the Old testament. It mean mercy, lovingkindness, goodness,devotion, generosity and grace. So look fo a man who is gracious and generous man.

Woah.. i feel so refresh by the Word Of God.. i will continue to follow my heart and listen to God voice. I thank God for all the teaching and wisdom he gave me.. Let give Praise to Our Lord Jesus.

I am the Righteous in Christ Jesus. I will have Favour in whatever i do.. including relationship and stay blessed everyday (:

Yesterday’s dinner conversation with my cg members were mainly about relationships. I think it’s because we’re slowly moving into a new season, where relationships are inevitable i guess? Like cons who was brought to a nice breakfast by her parents only for them to tell her to start finding a bf now.

But no this post isn’t about making fun of cons (even though it’s fun). think I’ve been thinking alot about relationships because of the amount of time I have. Furthermore, church says time to date or get married is when u’re financially independant. And that’s me! So I need to go Oasis already. but guys my age or older are not.and i don’t date younger guys.

I always remember relationships as being the happiest moments and saddest moments of my life. I just haven’t learnt to deal with the sad part. Yet there’s this part of me that feels warm and fuzzy when I see couples happy together. Like yvon and gh when I saw them together at yvon’s bday party. Or like shuang an and alicia who always seem happy. And even (surprise surprise) jaz and edi when I read her blog the other day.

This coming from the same guy who didn’t want to even speak to them at college day a few weeks ago. It’s just good to know people are happy (I hope). I’m not writing this blog to advertise that I want to get attached ok. I’m happy on my own. Besides I don’t think I’m emotionally and mentally prepared for another round at this kind of life.

I just think people are either very happy or very sad when they’re with someone else. Key is to find the right time. No use even if it’s the right person at the wrong time. Worse if it’s wrong person and wrong time.

I remember sharing this with samuel (and maybe steve and des), that I was asking God like how to know when’s the right time. And the answer was so plain and simple, "you will know". So just enjoying life now. When I found myself feeling happy for jaz and edi, I realised maybe I have moved on. Like finally. I still have his last 4 messages that he sent to me in my phone. But I don’t seem to care about it anymore.

Life moves on. With that said, I won’t promise to not get attached before a certain age of what. I won’t even dare to say I won’t get attached this year. I think most important is to just keep focussing on God. I mean I got alot to learn.